This summer I read the book ‘Homecoming: Reclaiming and Championing your inner child’ by John Bradshaw. At first it felt weird, but a few weeks after I finished the book I started writing to my inner child. She is 3 (usually) and is very inquisitive. Always asking questions but understands things clearly if they are explained (as most 3 years do).
Last week I wrote something to myself that I’m sharing with you. Usually I start with ‘how are you’ but this time I wanted it to be more anonymous. Just to tell the child in me how special she is.
Dear little girl,
My name is Michelle, we share names! How awesome is that? you are so cute. I love your pigtails and innocent smiles. I love watching you play and laugh.
I wish I could change the next 20 years of your life but I know that this path has been chosen for you and is something no one can ‘save’ you from. I don’t know what’s on the other other side yet – I can’t tell you. I know that you are so brave, you are strong, you carry a lot of influence and power in you.
You don’t understand how important your childhood is – I don’t even know. But I know it’s so huge. You learn a lot of thing about yourself that aren’t true but don’t worry – you work through them eventually.
You are beautiful, you are smart, you belong, there is nothing about you that is a mistake. I can’t go back and change anything for you. But I do get to eventually replace memories and feelings. We get to experiences life together, again.