Allowing Love

A journal entry from last weekend: 
 
I don’t want to be open and empty and beloved. I don’t want this life. Loving people – No. Being loved. Being loved. That I don’t want. 
Because… I have to accept it. Believe it. Trust that I’m not full of shit when I know I am. 
I AM full of shit. And deep inside I also know I’m… loved. 
Letting myself see and accept love, that I am beloved and adored means allowing the potential to be abandoned. 
If I let people see my heart, if I let my guard down, if I give my heart… will I be abandoned? Like I have been so many times in the past. 

 

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About Michelle

I'm Michelle. I'm an extrovert city girl who grew up in the beautiful farm country of the East Coast and moved to Houston Texas 6 years ago. Stepping out, being known and letting myself be seen are some of the scariest and most frightening things I’ve done and that's what my blog is about. View all posts by Michelle

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