Fear is a liar

Fear. So much fear. It lies to me. Fear is a liar. It tells me I’m alone when I’m in a room of people who truly love me. It tells me I’m ugly when I’m God’s perfect Creation. It tells me there is no way i could ever earn love when I don’t have to earn anything.

Fear reminds me that staying hidden and quiet and alone is safe. And safe is fears biggest lie to me.

But to pretend i can hide (out of fear) is to live in fear. If people knew i live in fear they wouldn’t like me, i wouldn’t ‘measure up’.  Hiding is safer. Safe…

I want to feel safe. Many times i would rather feel safe then loved. I seek the lie of safety rather then the truth of love.

The truth is… All i have to do is receive. Receive Love, Grace, my gifts, Peace… The problem is i can’t hold on to the lie that i have to earn love AND receive His love at the same time.

And the journey to let go of my self (earning, deserving, getting, feeling safe) goes on.

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About Michelle

I'm Michelle. I'm an extrovert city girl who grew up in the beautiful farm country of the East Coast and moved to Houston Texas 6 years ago. Stepping out, being known and letting myself be seen are some of the scariest and most frightening things I’ve done and that's what my blog is about. View all posts by Michelle

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